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Edellisessä merkinnässä purin pre-game ahdistusta juurikin tämän pelin tiimoilta, mutta sain sen onneksi aisoihin ja olin lopulta jopa ihan tyytyväinen proppeihini (joskin toinen pitkähihainen ja toiset sukat olisivat märässä kevättalven maastossa olleet hyvä ajatus).

- Hahmoni oli hyvä hahmo, vaikkakin hiukan accidental typecast: kovapintainen, kunniallinen naissoturi (ilmeisesti ollaan viime aikoina siirrytty puunhalaajahipeistä tähän) jolla oli sisäisiä motivaatioristiriitoja ja vähän oma polku hukassa.
Kampanjan luonteen (tietyt arkkityypit/"jumaluudet" syntyvät aina uudelleen ja sotkeentuvat toistensa kohtaloihin) vuoksi kuitenkin tunsin ei-kampanjahahmon pelaajana oloni melko lailla statistiksi sekä hahmona että pelaajana kun toiminta alkoi toden teolla ja arkkityypit alkoivat tunnistaa toistensa inkarnaatioita. Ryhmääni kuului minun ja kahden palvelijahahmon lisäksi arkkityypeistä käsittääkseni Valta, Valo ja Tieto, joten hahmo oli hiukan pallo hukassa kun nämä alkoivat huidella ympäriinsä tekemässä hahmoni näkökulmasta käsittämättömiä asioita etenkin kun kukaan ei kertonut tälle mitä hittoa on tekeillä. 
Vaikka tällä kertaa toisin kuin yleensä en jäänytkään katumaan moniakaan asioita joita olisin halunnut tehdä toisin pelin aikana (olin itse asiassa mielestäni hyvinkin uskollinen hahmon luonteelle, tavoitteille, näkemyksille ja motiiveille - ainoastaan se hiukan jäi kaihertamaan ettei harras mitralaiseni mennyt jututtamaan papistoa), sen sijaan hahmon pelinjälkeinen kohtalo ei ole jäänyt kaihertamaan mieltä tällä tavalla pitkiin aikoihin. I want to believe in a happy ending!
Tajusin myös, että omassa elämässäni on tarpeeksi draamaa, angstia ja ahdistusta jotta haluaisin kokea sitä isoja annoksia myös todellisuuspakoisessa harrastuksessani. Seuraavaksi olisi kiva saada jotain Caleionin Triancen kaltaista - peruspositiivista ja iloista hahmoa jolla ei ole suurempia synkkiä salaisuuksia tai karmeaa taustaa tai mitään sellaista.

- Osin edellämainituista syistä tunsin ei mitenkään yllättäen oloni myös enemmään kuin hiukkasen ulkopuoliseksi pregameilla ja etenkin aftereilla kun en voinut oikein purkaa peliä kenenkään kanssa kun tuntui ettei hahmoni tekemisillä tai tekemättä jättämisillä ollut minkään valtakunnan merkitystä minkään kannalta. Olisin esim. ehkä halunnut puida vastapelaajan kanssa hahmojen suhteen tulevaisuutta, mutta se tuntui jotenkin tyhmältä ja turhalta (mitäpä jumalten kuninkaan inkarnaatio tavallisessa kerransyntyvässä kuolevaisessa näkisikään pidemmän päälle jne.).
Lisäksi huomasin taas tulevani enimmäkseen paremmin juttuun miesten kuin naisten kanssa. Miehet keskimäärin ovat vaan niin paljon... noh, helpompia. Helpompia lukea ja ennakoida ja sanovat yleensä suoraan mitä ajattelevat. En nyt tarkoita sanoa että kaikki naiset ovat koko ajan hankalia stereotypiakimppuja jotka eivät ikinä sano mitä oikeasti ajattelevat tai mitään sellaista, nyt vain kun olen oppinut ymmärtämään paremmin todennäköisiä Asperger -ominaisuuksiani (seriously, selittäisi NIIN paljon, mutta siitä lisää myöhemmin), olen tajunnut että suuri osa sosiaalisesta ahdistuksestani johtuu siitä, että saan ihmisistä niin ristiriitaisia signaaleita että "ylikuormitun" yrittäessäni hahmottaa kokonaiskuvaa (kehonkieli/henkilöstä huokuva yleisfiilis ei ollenkaan vastaa sitä mitä suusta tulee = major confusion, etenkin kun sosiaaliset normit edellyttävät etten kyseenalaista sanoja tai lähde muuten kaivelemaan totuutta esille). Ja ikävä sanoa näin, mutta mitä "perinteisempi" naishenkilö on kyseessä, sen vaikeampaa minulle on kommunikoida toimivasti hänen kanssaan koska en itse handlaa sitä ääneenlausumatonta koodistoa ollenkaan (tai paljolti muitakaan ääneenlausumattomia koodistoja, kirjoittamattomat säännöt ovat ehkä pahinta mitä tiedän). Surullista on myös tajuta, että ystävystyminen on tästä syystä tosi vaikeaa ja vaatii paljon kärsivällisyyttä toiselta (olen oikeasti kaverina kiva ja lojaali ja antelias, give me a chance guys?)

- Juominen on hyvä juttu. Mieluiten sellaisten asioiden juominen jotka eivät sisällä alkoholia. Etenkään saunassa tai kun ei ole syönyt tarpeeksi. Tai molempia. Pitäisi muutenkin vaan suosiolla jättää alkoholi kokonaan pois, kun se ei muutenkaan ole millään lailla oleellinen osa elämääni ja kehoni kun ei muitakaan mömmöjä (makeutusaineet, kofeiini, lääkkeet...) oikein osaa käsitellä. (edit: Huom, join siis puolikkaan siiderin ja yhden Breezerin) Etenkään nestehukkaisena. Tyhmä tyttö kun ei vieläkään tajua nesteytyksen tärkeyttä. Tai tajuaa, muttei muista. Miten voi unohtaa syödä ja juoda kunnolla, senkin jälkeen kun on seurauksena käynyt pari kertaa jo sairaalassakin? Ja muutenkin vihaa pahoinvoimista. Ehkä tällekin ongelmalle löytyy selitys ja ehkä jopa ratkaisu neurologilla.

- Parisuhteeni taitaa olla aika helkkarin hataralla pohjalla tällä hetkellä.
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Tell me, why do I larp again, when I know I get anxious and control-freaky about everything and focus way too much on insignificant costuming stuff and in the process fail to absorb the materials as well as I should (why yes, larping in Finland is srs bsns)?
And that I'll probably also feel like an outsider off-game and instead of the wild drinking that usually happens pre- and after-game, just want to have quiet, deep conversation with someone in the corner - but my go-to people for that won't be present.

I’m paying 20€ for something that should be fun and relaxing break from reality, but instead brings me panic attacks and general anxiety.

Why couldn’t I just sit this one out?

(I promise I'll write more about what's been going on in my life lately (not very much, but some of that important) soon, I just needed to get this off my chest right now, and it was a good excuse to activate this thing that has been gathering dust for way too long.)
darnaguen: (Default)

I'm putting this here since I don't have any other place for it right now. Some music for a future larp project.
darnaguen: (being human)
My New Year's resolution, I suppose, could be: "Be more active on LJ."

I don't really even know why I haven't written anything since that latest whine about my love life in November(!!). I mean, there have been many times when I've had a whole post envisioned in my head but for some reason never got around to writing it down. You know what I mean?

But it's funny: I don't know if it's the New Year and a sort of feeling of a clean slate or what, but I have a feeling that something has changed, and I daresay in a positive way. Like I've managed to let go of some burden that has weighed heavy on my shoulders and held me back or something. Strange, really, 'cause I can't say what it is exactly.
Ah well, maybe it's just the slowly but surely increasing light. *shrug*

ETA: Oh, right. I was supposed to talk about the New Year. *facepalm* Thanks, [livejournal.com profile] korppis.
We spent it rather traditionally at Ella's family cabin in Laitila (this small rural town a bit north from Turku) by a frozen lake in the middle of the woods. Lots of awesome people, booze, SingStar, a wooden hot tub by the lake, full moon and -30 Celsius. :D
I really felt rather Finnish at one point, running from the cabin to the sauna in the snow and under the starlit sky with a bottle of alcoholic beverage in my hand, wearing only a long woolen jumper and combat boots. At least I didn't yell "Perkele!" as I went. :D It was awesome. <3

Oh! We also have a cat now. Riimu (means "rune"), Tommi's old cat, has been living with his sister for a couple of years, but now she has a boyfriend who's allergic so she decided to give her to us when we were visiting Tommi's parents over the holidays.
She's a lovely creature, especially when you compare her to the previous cat I had. It's nice to be able to walk past a cat lounging on the floor without having to fear for your ankles. xD But then, she's 7 years old already, a graceful lady and not a hotheaded teenager. Though we're considering getting her a playmate sometime soon, an orphan kitty rescued from the streets of Estonia probably. I'm determined to get my Romana. :D

(BTW, I just realized the ornament in my teaspoon resembles the Seal of Rassilon. O_o)

Being more active on LJ isn't the only thing I need to work on, though. The fourth episode of Cloud Islands is approaching and I have four characters to write. I know, it's only four, but I seem to suffer from a horrible writer's block lately. :( I mean, Ares'tes for example, I have a pretty clear vision of what he's like inside my head, but I just have no idea how to put that into words. The fact that I have to write the characters from pre-existing templates and be sure to get all the plots right makes it even harder. I guess I need to discuss that more with Ella and Janina. *sigh*

But hey: I thought I'd lost pretty much all interest towards LARP but now I'm actually looking forward to the WoD scenario in February. And Merirosvopoukama (The Pirate Cove) as well. :)

And I also need to contact Riku (my awesome career counselor) and get my backside back to the library since my only source of income at the moment is the housing allowance, which is some 56€. Yay...
And have the blood tests taken and remember to take my meds every day. This year, I will be better.

Oh, and one more thing: Being Human's second series starts on Sunday! <3<3<3
darnaguen: (Default)
Fucking fuckety fuck.

If I was anxious and desperate the last time days before the Cloud Islands, this time I just seriously want to give up and only want it to be over already. I know I said it the last time as well, but really, if this succeeds, I'll call it a divine miracle. This whole thing is a big fucking mess.
I still think we should have postponed it, or cancelled it altogether. Because this shit? Is a haphazard work in progress at best.
I'm really sorry that it always seems to be you who suffers of the Cloud Islands curse of lousy luck, [livejournal.com profile] grindwyn. *sigh* I really really wanted especially that dynamic to work out, but what the hell can you do when first there's no one to play Birchleaf and then goddamn Santeri has to cancel too so Blackthorn lacks a player as well. Perkele.

It's perhaps not the most exemplary GM behaviour to run off to your boyfriend in Tampere when the stress level becomes too much to handle and I've probably been driving poor Tommi up the wall, but I'm pretty sure that had I gone back to Turku instead on Monday night, I'd be a wreck by now.
But we'll see what tomorrow brings, when I'm back in Turku. *sigh*

darnaguen: (lotr)
(Entry in Finnish, sorry folks. :p)

Ropeconista kotiutuminen on aina yhtä hämmentävä kokemus, paluu arkitodellisuuteen.
Yritän tässä parhaillani järjestellä ajatuksiani johonkin selkeään muotoon miettien samalla mistä sitä kannattaa puhua ja mistä ei (tervetuloa darnaonkryptinen.comiin!).

Yleisesti ottaen oli ihan mukava coni.
Perinteisiä koko vuorokauden syömättä valvomisia, öisiä urheilukentällä juoksenteluja ja pornopolkan tanssimisia ei tänä vuonna tullut harrastettua, eikä juuri tälläytymistäkään (eeppisin asusteeni taisi olla 30-luku -henkinen olkihattuni), mutta toisaalta taas mm. pelasin keskellä yötä Aliasta tuikituntemattomien kanssa, pistin Ellan kanssa oman kahden hengen diskon pystyyn larp-tiskin luo, nauroin katketakseni melko ruokapöytään sopimattomille ja vähintäänkin levottomille keskusteluille ravintolan nurkkapöydässä. Ja harastin öisiä keskusteluja eeppisistä aiheista.

Alunperinhän minun ei olisi edes ollut tarkoitus lähteä, enimmäksen varattomuuden vuoksi. Viime lauantaina kuitenkin sattui kadulla vastaan kävelemään Perttu, joka ilmoitti, että ellen muuten tule 'Coniin, hän maksaa matkani. Varmemmaksi vakuudeksi hän vielä ilmoitti aikovansa cosplayata Doctor Who:ta. Siinä vaiheessa nostin kädet pystyyn ja annoin periksi. Yleensä Kohtalo (tai miksi sitä sitten haluaakin nimittää) nimittäin tökkii minua tuolla tavoin kylkeen syystä.
Olen ihan tyytyväinen, että päätin lähteä. Mitään maailmoja mullistavaa nyt ei tapahtunut, mutta pari keskustelua oli kai ihan hyvä käydä (vaikken yhä vieläkään olekaan varsinaisesti riemuissani siitä, että ne ylipäätään piti käydä. Mutta lienee turha toivoa, että jos sulkee silmät ja yrittää uskotella itselleen, että sitä ei ole olemassa, se menee pois).
Ja on tietty aina mukava nähdä uusia ja vanhoja tuttuja, vaikka olikin välillä aika ulkopuolinen olo kun olen viime aikoina pudonnut aika tehokkaasti larppiympyröistä. Mutta onneksi minulla oli Tommi (siis se toinen Tommi :D) seurana aina kun Ella & co. viipottivat jonnekin omille teilleen, ja vietinkin sitten osapuilleen 90% conista hänen kanssaan, mikä oli mukavaa. :) Hassu maailma.

Seuraavaksi pitääkin alkaa keskittyä muuttoon ja sen erinäisiin järjestelyihin. Gah.
Saapa nähdä mihin tässä taas ollaan menossa.
darnaguen: (TeagueGuitar)
WARNING: PotC rant ahead, feel free to skip.

Bloody hell, maybe getting into the PotC fandom was a wrong move because I've become such a shipper that I will probably scream bloody murder and throw waffles at the screen if Will and Elizabeth are going to have another of those sickening happily-ever-after goddamn Disney fairytale endings.
Okay, maybe not a shipper (although have no doubt, I'm a so-called Sparrabether through and through), more like an anti-W/E shipper. Those two are just so... wrong. And uninteresting. And mismatched. And wrong. I'd rather have her end up with James (no, really. Norrie is love <3). Or Gibbs. Or Barbossa. Or Jack the Monkey.
C'mon. He's a whelp. She's a bloody Pirate Queen.
*takes several deep breaths to calm down* Okay, here's to hoping the ending really will be surprising/unpredictable, bittersweet (and not in "Oh, I wub u forevah, Will, my beloved honey-pumpkin, but we can't be together because you're the Captain of the Flying Dutchman so we can only see each other once in 10 years so I'll stay here on some remote island playing a nice little faithful housewife raising our son, William III." way, because that just sucks) and kick-ass.
Ted, Terry, Jerry, Gore. I have faith in you. Please don't let me down.

Okay, rant over. Whew.

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That boy is haunting my dreams again. Or still. Why?
He made a cameo again last night. He wasn't really present in the dream but he was mentioned, which is quite weird as the dream was mostly about me and Ella and Valtsu touring with Finntroll for some weird reason. At some point, by the way, I ended up on the stage playing bass and Ella playing keyboards.
As I said, weird. (And no, Suvi, Vreth wasn't there. I only remember Routa and Skrymer and Wilska who was in the audience.)

Hmm, I think I remember something else about that dream as well. It had places I've seen in my dreams before. Like that little dell full of yellow irises (only without the irises this time) by a small lake that I once found in a dream where I was road-tripping through North Karelia with [livejournal.com profile] suomigoth. And that country road passing through some fields where I walked once with Tuomas, near the house with the garden where I had been sitting next to some berry bushes and talking with his mother.
My dreams are strange.

In addition to strange dreams, my life has been quite uneventful lately (I've been mostly sitting home playing Baldur's Gate II and Lionheart), save the previous couple of weekends.
On the Saturday the 14th (yeah, not exactly Friday the 13th) I went with Ella to see a Tarot gig to Old Texas. Although I'm quite a Tarot newbie, I admit, I enjoyed the gig (even though some brilliantly intelligent person decided to throw their beer on me). It also seems like mine and Ella's gig mojo returned as after the show some drunken fella in his thirties made it his holy quest to get us the guys' autographs. I feel quite sorry for the poor guys as the fella was rather persistent-bordering-irritating. No wonder Zachary was apparently feeling a bit grumpy.
But Marco. Dude, if Zac's rather temperamental, the little bro is the embodiment of good-natured Zen.
And if said embodiment of good-natured Zen comes to you with a goofy drunken smile, opens his arms and says: "Let's hug!", you don't argue. :D Marco rocks.

Another event was Åbo By Night last weekend. What a brilliant concept: a WoD larp where the vampires express themselves by... singing karaoke!
We were only extras, playing quickly made up mortal goth youths. I put my Karelian dialect in practice again by playing a folklore student from Joensuu. It was fun.
The members of the Brujah clan were naturally loud, fun-loving metal fans and at one point they performed Hevimies together. And I shall never forget how the Prince of Turku (a fancy-pants Toreador himself) got up to the stage and performed Tsingis-Khan. :D

Oh, and good news! If I'm lucky, I should have internet in my own flat within a week!
So maybe I'll see you around again sooner than you think. Now I'm off to home.
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Tajusin juuri, että Mikachu taisi pari yötä sitten värvätä minut Korpimetsän Perkeleet 4c:n apu-PJ:ksi. Minä se en sitten ikinä näköjään opi.

Kaipaan myös taas metsään.
Tämä on tosi outoa, viimeksi aika tarkalleen vuosi sitten se usvainen järvi Nuuksiossa kummitteli mielessäni, ja nyt taas. En yhtään tiedä miksi. Oliko Trollwoodilla sittenkin loppujen lopuksi jopa enemmän merkitystä kun uskoimmekaan?
No jaa, se ei varmaan selviä muulla, kuin palaamalla paikalle. Jos silläkään.

Veera lähestulkoon luki ajatuksiani kun ehdotti Isosuolle lähtemistä. Pitäisi kyllä, pitkästä aikaa.
Vaikka ei se tietenkään täysin tule poistamaan sitä kaipuuta pois jonnekin suurille, humiseville salomaille, sellaisille, mistä Moonsorrow'n musiikki piirtää mieleen elävän kuvan.
Isosuo on vain pieni jäänne siitä, mitä joskus oli. Osa sitä, mihin myös ne metsät Liedossa kuuluvat, ja se, mitä Kuninkojasta on jäljellä. Joskus pitäisi tutkia ne kunnolla.

Mikähän kummallinen, levoton kaipaus mieleni on vallannut?
Pelkkää larpinjälkeismasennusta vaiko jotain muutakin?

Äh. Voisi varmaan perustaa ihan oman journalin näille hämärille kotimaankielisille avautumisilleni, friends only.
darnaguen: (f/e)
The freezing cold night by the bonfire, the millions of stars above our heads and the feelings of fear, love, hope, anticipation and uncertainty.

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An almost disbelieving sigh.

"May the Goddess be with you."
"Thank you, friend."

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The riverbank, sunlight dancing on the surface. Footsteps behind me.

"Who are you?"
"Shouldn't you already know?"

A glimmering dragonfly flies past.

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"Varg, put me down!"

Her Royal Highness faints. Gasps of surprise and shock. Some merry cheers... coming from the trolls? I'm laughing and crying at the same time, everything around me is a blur except him. Thundercloud (or was it her?) hands me my hairclip that has fallen off.
I can only smile.

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"Was that a rival suitor?
"No, it was my best friend. No need to fear."
"Ahh, I don't fear anything anymore."

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New threats form the outside. I'm torn between my loyalties to my Queen and my kin and my love and loyalty for him and his people.

"Leafsong, please tell me I don't need to find a new Grand Mage for the House of Earth as well."
"If only I could say that for sure, Your Highness."

 
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-People darting nervously around in their fancy clothes. Anticipation in the air. Half-hysterical jokes and laughter, very few things go as they're planned.

-Relieved smiles. We did it after all. We all did.

-Drinking around the bonfire, general feeling of camaraderie.

-Videocamera madness with naked people covered in cow blood. Simply hilarious.

-Rammstein turns into Marilyn Manson. Some brave ones start dancing, can't resist joining in.
Flames, swaying limbs and bodies. Para-Noir with Veera. Tainted Love, and I'm smiling to myself.  Exhilaration, excitement, exhaustion.

-Everyone else is asleep, only a few of us awake. Olli in the firelight, one arm around Vappu and another around Kirsi. Valtsu looks tired and drunk and he clambers off at some point. After some tunes from Moulin Rouge and Chicago Anna curls up on the bench. Ville being Ville, drinking and smoking and telling dead baby -jokes and crazy true stories. Character analysis on several people. Contentment. Slight sadness when the night is over.

-Cold, clear morning. The world looks different again. Back to reality.
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Okay, if the sky doesn't fall down on us, the forest in the area burn to ashes or something else as radical happen, Cloud Islands II - Windwards will hopefully be played from tomorrow evening to the following one.
I so much hope everything that was going to go wrong has already gone wrong. No more nasty surprises, thank you very much. *shakes her fist at some invisible force, Fate maybe, or Fortune*

Now we can only close our eyes, cross our fingers and hope for the best.

Wish us luck, sweethearts, I'm off to bed now.
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Ugh, I tried to take a nap to make up the badly slept night, but I'm apparently too restless and guilt-ridden to do so, so I'm back here trying get something done.
If only Karkki sent  me that info she promised, it'd be nice to know what out dear Queen is up to. *sigh*
But well, at least I think I finally figured out how do Evenstar's telepathic powers work, at least the part of them that can be used in-game. The use of mind-powers is always difficult to put into effect in LARPs and it will probably be somewhat awkward this time too, but well, it's the best I could do.

The reason why I didn't sleep very well is the after-game party of 1115 AD in Paimio. I didn't attend to the LARP myself, but Ella's boyfriend Atte did so he asked Ella and me to come too. It was quite nice although I felt horribly guilty for not being at home writing with the keyboard on fire.
Ah well, this morning when we were on our way back to Turku, Tsoukki (Atte's friend, our driver) decided to want to go see the ruins of the old Kuusisto castle, so we went there and climbed around in the remains of the stone walls a while before heading to Ella's place where we drank some tea and then parted ways as the lads drove back to Helsinki and I headed home.

Oh heck, either I need to cheer up or to really get a couple of hours of sleep.
Sleeping would be better idea, I imagine, as the damned sunlight reflecting from the screen is making seeing what I'm writing practically impossible at the moment.
So a nap it is, and after that I need to finish writing at least Rainhaze, Crescentglow and Skyfire and write Evenstar and Waterlily from the beginning again, plus at least a summary of Dawning for Atte. Phew.

I wonder what strange masochistic urge makes me get involved in LARP-writing year after year even though I full well know I suck at being a good and responsible GM? *sigh*
darnaguen: (Default)
They accepted me to the Paasikiviopisto (=a folk's college where I'll probably be studying journalism for following 10 months.). Kinda cool, though the thought is also quite intimidating.
Will that be the start of my new life? Was I right when I predicted in the end of the last year that this year will be the year of changes, preparing us to the next, important one?
I believe I was.

Now I only hope they will give me a private room because if I have to share a room with someone, anyone, I simply cannot live there. *crosses fingers*
But otherwise I wouldn't mind living there at all, the dorm buildings are really charming.
The only thing that bothers me about that place is the fact that the school grounds are surrounded by a golf-course. And I'm not entirely comfortable in very open spaces (especially if there is a risk to be hit in the head by a golf ball...:p).
But I guess I'll get used to it...

Aeh, only a month left to the Cloud Islands and I've only managed to come up with some ideas for the new characters. And with some of the old ones, I have no idea what to do with them. *sigh* And then there's Karkki with her plans and ideas for the Queen etc.
Sometimes this whole project feels just too chaotic to handle. Too many cooks in the kitchen or something. *sighs again*
But I'll do my best because people are counting on us to deliver a good LARP.

I'm also haunted by a fanfic idea once again, but probably it will remain only an idea because I almost never manage to put my ideas into effect. It would be quite a simple pairing fic with the characters' musings on each other and their own emotions. You can throw a wild guess which pairing it is. *grin*
Especially that one very clear mental image haunts me on such level that I think I may have to write that fic. I just have to find out how to build a story around it, what leads to that particular scene. Hmm...

Oh, I just remembered: yesterday happened something funny.
I was sitting at computer, listening to music and reading something, and my mom was sitting on my bed talking to her boyfriend on phone (she'd had to exile herself to my room because our bathroom is in noisy redecoration). I didn't hear a thing because I listened to music on earphones, but after she had hung up, my mom gestured to me to remove my earphones and asked me why I had just growled. I said I hadn't because I certainly didn't remember I had done so, at least intentionally. She then told it had been a good-natured, pleased sound, something in between a purr and a growl.
Weird. I make wolfish sounds without noticing it myself. O_O

And the obligatory cryptic part of the post:
I hate it that he has to make me so nervous.
No, not the one you probably think.

There.
Over and out.
darnaguen: (rightthing)
Whew, changed me layout and got meself a different account. Now I have ads, yay.
And more icons, mwahaha.

And all the files disappeared from my own computer when Mikael reinstalled the Windows.
Fuck. But I knew the risks...

I have so much to write about.
I'd like to tell about my trip to North Karelia, rant about PotC II (I'm not obsessed with it, no sir... *whistles innocently*) and then also write a report about KP5.
But once again when I'm supposed to do it, I end up doing something useless instead.

Gah, maybe tomorrow. *sigh*
darnaguen: (Default)
I can't take part in Hauraita Unelmia next weekend because Minttu-Aaria will be in Kitee.
This time for real.

(For those who have no idea what I am talking about, Hauraita Unelmia (Fragile Dreams) is a city-LARP campaign in which my character is Minttu-Aaria, eldest of the Susimaa siblings and the heir of the obligation to fight against evil of her family, a kind of female Van Helsing so to say. :p She lives in Kitee in her grandmother's old house with her cousin Anna, gathering herbs and practicing all kinds of "white witch" type of things and goes to Turku from time to time to check on her younger sisters so they won't get themselves into too much trouble.)

Anyways... It's funny how life sometimes goes like that.
So the deal is: Our family friends have a summer cottage in Tohmajärvi (that lies right next to Kitee.) The last time I was there was when I was still in my mother's womb. They are going there again this summer and they asked my dad and little brother (who is their Godson) to come along. But since Mikael is off to his friend's summer cottage he can't go, so... :D
So I'll jump on train on Tuesday, destination being the railwaystation of Kitee, and won't be back until on Sunday.

Life truly is funny sometimes.

I'd like to point out, though, that I'm not going there to stalk any long-haired metal musicians.
And it's more likely that I'll be eaten alive by mosquitoes than that I'll run into any of NW's members anyway. :p
I'm going because I have planned to go to Eastern Finland during this summer anyway, something is drawing me to that direction (and no, that something isn't called Holopainen :p). And I need to get out of the town anyway. This is a perfect chance.

Being the optimistic person I am, I however can't help thinking that some malevolent Higher Power is laughing their ass off at me again. *dry chuckle*

But enough of that topic for now.
We had a nice NW-themed evening yesterday at Veera's. She sang NW with her beautiful soprano, we watched EoaE with her and Timo (and it wasn't as shaking experience this time) and shared NW memories. Timo beat us both, being an old school fan. :p
And tomorrow it will be Veera and Ella's birthday, partyparty. *grin*
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Once again a night I was supposed to actually write something sensible, but ended up making silly quizzes instead. *sigh*

I've also came to the conclusion that I'm an arrogant bitch.

Ah well. If you're intrested, some of the new promo pics for Cloud Islands can be found from our website, from the "Muuta" section.

Quiz )
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Hmm, I probably should get meself a life because I can't stop drooling on the new Finntroll live pics from Sauna Open Air. Here.

But they're so... So trollish. Even the prettyboy Vreth makes a decent troll. <3
Hmm, I wonder if I have spent too much time with Ella. :D

Speaking of trolls, we managed to make some decisions about the next episode of Cloud Islands today. So seems like Cloud Islands II - Windwards will be played 16.-18. 9. 2006 somewhere in the wilderness of Mynämäki. \,,/
And we'll go shoot the promo pics this sunday to Ruissalo. I have to go through my wardrobe to find some decent garments for elves, regular humans and corsairs.

I also really have to start thinking about Dawning and Evenstar (yes, I know, they sound so cliché in English. Sarastus sounds much cooler than Dawning. Not to mention Evenstar... :p)
I want Dawning to be cool. And male. And hot, if possible. :D
He's from the House of Fire after all. *giggle*
And Evenstar... She needs to be the opposite to her crazy twin brother. Calm and levelheaded, maybe even somewhat cold. A deep thinker.
Hmm... She'll be such a goth cliché, especially wearing the black and silver of her House. *grin*

Of course we also need a player for her (and to Dawning too, of course). Volunteers? ;)

Ah well, I still have the old characters to update too, of course.
I have to talk to Karkki about the Goldenflame-thing. Because I just think it wouldn't work.
But we'll see...
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Stole this from [livejournal.com profile] starkku

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What a suprise. :p

Meh. I'm still not entirely sure if I should go to Tampere tomorrow or not.
I know I will regret it if I don't go, but I really couldn't afford it. Waah.
Why can't I just *bamf* there and back or something? Marco's right, there really should be teleports in this world.
But I guess they would be even more expensive than trains... :/

Hmm. We should probably start doing something about The Cloud Islands II.
I'm just browsing throught the websites of various camping sites in Southeastern Finland, but I haven't found a place that would have room enough for about 50 people. Teijo would at least have gorgeous landscapes. I think I have been hiking there when I was still a little scout girl. That hike was pretty disastrous, but I enjoyed the landscapes greatly. But anyway, those huts are too small, they only have beds for 6 people or something, and it would be nice if people wouldn't have to sleep on the floor this time...

We have to have a GM meeting some day... I should probably also start to think what will I do my little elves. Though we should probably first ask the players who wants to continue playing their characters... And I have to decide what will I do with Rainhaze, because Moonlily has probably already lured him to marriage, but the problem is that he can't represent the House of Mist as its General anymore if he's in the House of Moon now because they already have Crescentglow as their General... So if he's married, we can't have him in this larp. And that would be a drag, because Rainhaze is one of my favorites.
I guess I have to negotiate this with his player because he said he wants Rainhaze to join the House of Moon because he (Olli, Rainhaze's player) wants to wear midnight blue and silver. :p Hopefully we can find a solution.

I think we'll also need a new Grand Mage for the House of Fire because Goldenflame and her lover, Prince Moonleaf were expelled from the Elven Realm for treason.
And possibly also a new General for them if Skyfire's still too shocked about Recognizing Morningstar to do her job. :p Though I'd really love to have her around, we didn't have enough sassy and hot-tempered women last time.
And we'll need someone who doesn't hesitate to act, especially now that... Well, you'll see. ;)

Anyway, I should go to sleep now... *yawn*
I already feel guilty because I think I'm not going to Tampere tomorrow. I hate always being the one to cancel things on the last minute.*sigh* I must do something about it, I don't want to always be a disappointment to everyone...

By the way, I had an idea about those flashback-things last night. I realized that the place I see and "feel" is none of the places I've seen, and yet it's all of them. Very strange.
Oh well, Eternal Wait one more time and then to bed...
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"Isoja plussia :
Peikkojen kontaktit - Ehkä parhaat koskaan näkemäni kontaktikuvaukset ja nyt täytyy todeta että minulla itsellänäkin saattaa olla parantamisen varaa verrattuna tähän. Suorastaan liikutuin kun luin näitä, niin hyviltä ne tuntuivat verrattuna normaalin kahden rivin kontakteihin.

Proppaus - Proppaus oli hyvin toteutettu ja lihasvoimin paikalle puristettu. Tämän sanon vaikka en nähnyt kuin peikkoleirin, joka sinäänsä ei ollut uniikki, mutta suullisista kuvauksista etc. pystyn kyllä päättelemään mitä asian eteen oli tehty.

Omat ideat ja Satumaisuus - Vaikka välillä hymyilytti varsin paljonkin kun ymmärsi mistä asioita oli kopioitu, maailma oli kuitenkin pelinjohdon näköinen. Tai ainakin visio oli tuore. Suoraan sanottuna, juuri sitä mitä Suomen larp-scene tarvitsee, varsinkin fantasian puolella. Peli sinänsä oli yksi parhaista fantasialarpeista koskaan, osittain ehkä siksi että mukaan oli otettu tiettyjä satuaspekteja, jotka ovat yleensä olleet varma tae fantasiapelin kirjoituksessa. Kaikki muut fantasiapelit jotka yltävät samalle tasolle, Hanhiemon tarinat, Olipa Kerran 2 (Kouvolan seudun OK, niitä kun on kymmeniä) ja jopa Kunnian Pirstaleet (IMHO paras larppi koskaan) ovat sisältäneet niitä.

Pelinjohdon antaumus - Tämä oli huomattavissa ja ihailtavaa. Kehäraakkiveteraani GM nostaa hattuaan ja kumartaa."


Jupe Rantalaisen lähettämää palautetta pelimme suhteen. *hehkuu ylpeydestä*
Tietysti mokailimmekin vaikka mitä ainakin käytännön asioiden suhteen, mutta silti.

Niin, ja kuvia:

http://photobucket.com/albums/a139/TaivaanSaaret/

Hitto että olin tyytyväinen pelaajiemme proppaukseen. Varsinkin keijujen hallitsijapari oli henkeäsalpaava näky kuljeskellessaan siellä ylväinä käsi kädessä parhaaseen Celeborn ja Galadriel -tyyliin. :)

Lisää myöhemmin, ehkä. Nyt voisi alkaa kirjoittaa sitä kiitosmailia pelaajille.
darnaguen: (Default)
Se on ohi. Uskomatonta, se on ohi.
Halleluja, voin hengittää taas...

Peli itsessään oli jotain aivan muuta kuin odotimme, se nimittäin osoittautuikin huomattavasti enemmän toiminta- kuin tunnelmapohjaiseksi (vaikka tunnelmaakin takuulla riitti)ja siinä tapahtui yllättävänkin radikaaleja asioita (Tovahår... *snif*). Kaipa se kuitenkin onnistui ihan hyvin, sillä olemme saaneet hyvää palautetta. Esim. Jupe Rantalaisen TOP 5 -peleihin kuulemma pääsimme, pitäisikö tuota uskoa...
Hyvän pelin yleensä tekevät pääosin pelaajat, ja meillä olikin ihan loistava pelaajakaarti. Erityisen ylpeä olin keijuryhmästäni, jolla lensi off-game ennen pelin osaltamme viivästynyttä alkua ihan uskomatonta läppää (Yökastelija, Prinssi Avaruuslävistäjä ja Pyhä Märehtijä... Ja Tommin sukkahousut. *virne*), joten yhteishenki oli hyvä. Jengimme oli myös hienoissa propeissaan enimmäkseen upean näköistä (*haluaisi sanoa jotain, mutta sen sijaan virnistää pahankurisesti*) ja pelasikin hahmojaan hyvin, mitä nyt siltä kohellukselta ehti keskittyä henkilösiteisiin sun muuhun.

Luonto oli myös puolellamme, sillä sää oli kuin morsian. Kylmähkö tosin, mutta kaunis.
Toisin kuin tänään, taivas oli kirkas, ei satanut eikä edes tuullut pahemmin. Auringonlasku oli upea ja yöllä taivaalle nousi valtava, kirkas täysikuu joka valaisi kuuset hopeisiksi ja välkehti veden pinnassa.
Aamulla myös mennessämme rakentamaan keijuleiriä ylitsemme lensi raakkuva korppi. Hurjaa...

Mmh. Ehkä kirjoitan huomenna jotain tarkempaa raporttia, sitten kun osaan nukuttuani sisäistää asioita paremmin.

"Hän katsoi maan reunalta tähteä putoavaa.
Nyt kauniit kasvot neitosen peittää karu maa.
Jokaisen täytyy katsoa silmiin totuuden
Sillä aika ompi voittoisa, mut' tämä maa on ikuinen..."


Täydellistä.

(EDIT: Missä hiton vaiheessa sana 'hengittää' muuttui sanaksi 'jengittää', ja mitä moinen jengittäminen edes on? O_O No, nyt se on korjattu...)
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Hmmh.
KP4B -kieli jäi päälle.
Nyt sitten puhun jollain epämääräisellä murteenpuolikkaalla ja kiroilen kuin merirosvo.
Paitsi että merirosvot tuskin käyttivät manausta "Eräjorma"...

Oli aika hassua törmätä Socramoniin siellä.
Miilan nyt tiesinkin olevan paikalla, kuuluihan hän pelinjohtoon.
Madrikin siellä taisi heilua, yhtenä peikoista yllättäen.
keef minun oli taas tarkoitus tavata Tampereella, mutta eihän siitä taaskaan mitään tullut kun aikataulut olivat armottomat ja organisaatio pissi.

Uaah. Väsymys.
Ei olisi huvittanut yhtään palata Turkuun.
No, ehkä ensi viikonloppuna Helsinkiin.

"Läs nu runor med magiska tal
Spå en ålder av ve och kval
När mörka skuggor nu himmelen rider
Se då nalkas jaktens tid..."

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