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When I dance it hurts less
Right now I wish I could erase my memories of yesterday, or of last night to be specific.
I don't know what exactly happened but I've rarely felt that horrible before. Probably almost exactly two years ago was the last time I felt like this. And I hate myself for that.
If I wished I could do as Minttu and take the first train to Kitee before, now it's almost all I wish to do... I need to get away for a while. But the thing is, I know I can't. Fuck.
Ah well... I don't know what else to say without just sounding pathetic.
Yes, I know I'm too proud to fall apart even if I needed it.
I don't know what exactly happened but I've rarely felt that horrible before. Probably almost exactly two years ago was the last time I felt like this. And I hate myself for that.
If I wished I could do as Minttu and take the first train to Kitee before, now it's almost all I wish to do... I need to get away for a while. But the thing is, I know I can't. Fuck.
Ah well... I don't know what else to say without just sounding pathetic.
Yes, I know I'm too proud to fall apart even if I needed it.