When I dance it hurts less

[darnaguen]

Right now I wish I could erase my memories of yesterday, or of last night to be specific.
I don't know what exactly happened but I've rarely felt that horrible before. Probably almost exactly two years ago was the last time I felt like this. And I hate myself for that.

If I wished I could do as Minttu and take the first train to Kitee before, now it's almost all I wish to do... I need to get away for a while. But the thing is, I know I can't. Fuck.

Ah well... I don't know what else to say without just sounding pathetic.

Yes, I know I'm too proud to fall apart even if I needed it.

Comments

[suomigoth.livejournal.com]

I don't think that if you really feel like you do and than you just shout your feelings somewhere is pathetic. It would be if you wouldn't do anything but complaining how miserable you feel. But I know you don't do that and that's not who you are. there are always people willing to listen :)

Do you also feel that Karjala has some kind of magic, calling for your soul? If elves would still be alive, they would life in Karjala...

[darnaguen.livejournal.com]

Thank tou for your kind words, dear. :)

And yeah... I don't know what it is, something is just pulling me eastwards...
I don't even know if it's Kitee that is calling me, but it's worth checking I guess.
Seven weeks to wait...

[grindwyn.livejournal.com]

Hey you, wolven maid.

Ikävää kuulla, että asiat eivät ole niin hyvin kuin voisivat olla. Mutta jos olet päässyt tuosta tunteesta yli kerran, pääset kyllä toistekin.

Enpä tiedä piristääkö tämä suuntaan tai toiseen, mutta:
Sain aikaiseksi perustaa journalin minäkin, rupeatko kaveriksi?

- Iina / Gothelia / yhä enenevässä määrin Grindwyn

[darnaguen.livejournal.com]

Kiitos rohkaisevista sanoista, ja onkin kyllä jo parempi olo. :)

Ja tietysti ryhdyn kaveriksi, the more the merrier! ^^