"I will let you down, I will make you hurt."

[darnaguen]

I hurt myself today
To see if I still feel.
I focus on the pain,
The only thing that's real.
The needle tears a hold,
The old familiar sting.
Try to kill it all away
But I remember everything.

What have I become
My sweetest friend?
Everyone I know goes away
In the end.
And you could have it all,
My empire of dirt.
I will let you down,
I will make you hurt.

I wear this crown of thorns
Upon my liar's chair,
Full of broken thoughts
I cannot repair.
Beneath the stains of time
The feelings disappear.
You are someone else,
I am still right here.

What have I become
My sweetest friend?
Everyone I know goes away
In the end.
And you could have it all,
My empire of dirt.
I will let you down,
I will make you hurt.

If I could start again
A million miles away,
I would keep myself.
I would find a way.

I have friends I don't deserve.
Thank you, you are too good to me.