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Humans Are Stupid pt. 35798,047
Do forgive me if I sound a bit bitter right now, but...
Here's the deal:
Go ahead and fool around as much as you like, none of my business. We are not a couple and regardless of our relationship status you are not my property any more than I am yours.
But don't come to me feeling guilty about it, or fucking imply in any way that it is in any way my fault.
That alright? Good.
*takes a several deep, calming breaths*
Okay, feeling a bit better now.
Hell, sometimes I wish so much I had been born a wolf instead.
It is endlessly fascinating to me, to observe human behaviour, the endless peculiarities of human psyche.
But very often all that also feels very alien to me, all that ugly, messy and unnecessary bullshit that goes on every day. I'm certainly not saying that I'm never petty, jealous, immature or selfish; never whimsical or inconsiderate, that I've never done something just because I want to, regardless of how others may feel about it. It's only human.
But I try my very best not to, to be above such behaviour. I try to be honest, fair and objective in everything I do, to always try to understand, to avoid hurting others the best I can (even if I sometimes have to hurt them to do that).
Does that make me a freak of nature?
Because sometimes it feels like people see me that way. Which... Well, yes, I do understand on certain level. *chuckle*
I suppose I may often appear cold and unfeeling, with my prevalent lack of romantic and sexual feelings and all. It's just... on larger scale they're quite irrelevant, especially all the unnecessary fuss people make about them. Love is what matters most in the end, anyway. (And no, I don't see a contradiction there.)
Ah well. Maybe I am a deviant freak of nature with a manufacturing error, and should run off to the Andes to have a llama farm far away from any human habitation. I have never fit in to modern human society anyway.
Hm. When I started writing this I was feeling bitter. Now I'm just sad and emotionally exhausted.
And for what? Nothing much at all.
Guess it was just a trigger for yet another of my incoherent rants just waiting to break into surface...
Here's the deal:
Go ahead and fool around as much as you like, none of my business. We are not a couple and regardless of our relationship status you are not my property any more than I am yours.
But don't come to me feeling guilty about it, or fucking imply in any way that it is in any way my fault.
That alright? Good.
*takes a several deep, calming breaths*
Okay, feeling a bit better now.
Hell, sometimes I wish so much I had been born a wolf instead.
It is endlessly fascinating to me, to observe human behaviour, the endless peculiarities of human psyche.
But very often all that also feels very alien to me, all that ugly, messy and unnecessary bullshit that goes on every day. I'm certainly not saying that I'm never petty, jealous, immature or selfish; never whimsical or inconsiderate, that I've never done something just because I want to, regardless of how others may feel about it. It's only human.
But I try my very best not to, to be above such behaviour. I try to be honest, fair and objective in everything I do, to always try to understand, to avoid hurting others the best I can (even if I sometimes have to hurt them to do that).
Does that make me a freak of nature?
Because sometimes it feels like people see me that way. Which... Well, yes, I do understand on certain level. *chuckle*
I suppose I may often appear cold and unfeeling, with my prevalent lack of romantic and sexual feelings and all. It's just... on larger scale they're quite irrelevant, especially all the unnecessary fuss people make about them. Love is what matters most in the end, anyway. (And no, I don't see a contradiction there.)
Ah well. Maybe I am a deviant freak of nature with a manufacturing error, and should run off to the Andes to have a llama farm far away from any human habitation. I have never fit in to modern human society anyway.
Hm. When I started writing this I was feeling bitter. Now I'm just sad and emotionally exhausted.
And for what? Nothing much at all.
Guess it was just a trigger for yet another of my incoherent rants just waiting to break into surface...
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(Anonymous) 2009-01-14 08:12 am (UTC)(link)Being a wolf would certainly be better than being a human, though I've always wondered if I could be a glowing orb of light, which just hovers through the universe in deep contemplation. ;)
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