I was going to write more about Ropecon today, but I came to the conclusion that I don't actually have much to say about the event itself.
It was Ropecon. Hot long-haired guys, girls with elf ears, wacky antics and general boredom.

It was a good 'Con, but to me personally it's quite irrelevant because the reason why I was there wasn't the con itself. I was there because I felt I had to be there. I had lived in my safe little bubble for too long and blocked out all unpleasant thoughts about fate and future and whatnot.
It is clearly time to take the initiative and do something, even though I still don't know what I should do. But I thought I'd start with those two conversations I had on the Saturday night. There is a lot more to discuss with both of them, but yeah, it's a start.

I also decided that I will start Taiji-Qigong again this September, no matter what. I already wasted a year.

Hmm. There's much I want to say, but I can't quite find right words. I already wrote some stuff in my blog (link is in my sidebar in case someone's interested in reading strange ramblings), but even that didn't come out quite right. I'm feeling restless, like I should do something or say something, but I don't know what. Guess I'll just have to wait and see what happens. As usual. *sigh*

From the darling jupedog:

1. Grab the nearest book.
2. Open the book to page 23.
3. Find the fifth sentence.
4. Post the text of the next three sentences in your journal along with these instructions.
5. Don't dig for your favorite book, the cool book, or the intellectual one: pick the CLOSEST.

"Hänen ajatuksensa olivat suuntautuneet sisäänpäin, yrittivät ratkaista Trieliltä keskustelun kuluessa saamiaan hienovaraisia viestejä. Suunnitelma Mithrilsalin valloittamiseksi vaikutti varsin lupaavalta. Jarlaxle oli ollut kääpiölinnoituksen lähettyvillä ja tutustunut sen puolustukseen. Vaikka puolustus olikin ihailtavan luja, ei se kestäisi drow-armeijaa vastaan."
-R. A. Salvatore: Tähdetön yö (Starless Night)

Damn, why did it have to be the only FR book I've been reading in Finnish lately?
Ah well, just for the heck of it, the same from the second nearest book:

"Though Pippin had regretfully to destroy his hopeful tale, he could not be rid of his new rank, only fitting, men thought, to one befriended by Boromir and honoured by the Lord Denethor; and they thanked him for coming among them, and hung on his words and stories of the outlands, and gave him as much food and ale as he could wish. Indeed his only trouble was to be 'wary' according to the counsel of Gandalf, and not to let his tongue wag freely after the manner of a hobbit among friends.
At length Beregond rose. 'Farewell for this time!' he said."
-J.R.R. Tolkien: The Lord of the Rings - The Return of the King

I admit I had to bend the rules a little, though, because my copy is one of them illustrated ones by Alan Lee and the page 23 was actually an illustration of the city of Minas Tirith. So I used page 22. :p

Aaanyways... I had a pretty good time today.
Even though I'm once again in a totally weird sleeping pattern and spent the whole day sleeping yesterday and took only a little nap today after staying up all night, I actually managed to be one of the first ones in the history class for once. But well, it was the last class in this course and I didn't want to miss it. Wasn't exactly the most exciting class, though, because it was mostly about industrialism and the birth of modern political ideologies in the 19th century. But well, guess I have to learn about that stuff as well.
After school I went to buy myself the history textbook and also pick up the book I had ordered (the new The Legend of Drizzt edition of Salvatore's Sojourn with cover art by Todd Lockwood <3) while I was at it. Then I went to get Ella from work and we went to buy ourselves the tickets to a Kotiteollisuus gig on Saturday (yeah, the second time we see them live in two weeks :p) and grab some food.

After dining and hearing some sad news we met my mom briefly so she could give me some official documents and then proceeded to Cosmic Comic Café.
Thursday nights are Larp-kahvila nights so people from the Turku larp scene like Dare and Susanna and co. were about. Not a too big crowd, though, and I really enjoyed being all geeky and rambling about the X-Men with them. You don't get a chance to make good-natured fun of the soap-operatic shenanigans of the Summers clan or debate about whether Wolvie should have smelled it was Mystique entering his tent instead of Jean in X2 or not with like-minded people too often. I might have to make a habit of hanging out in Cosmic after school on Thursday nights, even though when people start talking about the city-larp campaign stuff, it all flies right over my head.
Another subject was for some reason (might have had something to do with Magneto) natural catastrophes, mainly the possibility of the über-volcano beneath the Yellowstone National Park erupting and promptly destroying a great deal of life on the North American continent (and probably also causing some nice little nuclear winters in Europe and Asia). I'll now take the risk of sounding like that git Pekka-Eric Auvinen and say that I probably wouldn't be too sorry if that happened. Of course I would want Steph and Chris and everyone to get away safely in time, but this world and mankind especially is in dire need of a bit of bitch-slapping, a reminder that we're not almighty, that not everything is in our control. This planet would also only benefit if there were a couple of billion people less.
So if you're asking me? Whoo yeah, bring on the Ragnarök/Harmageddon/what you have! \,,/

Gaah. I'm sure I had something else to write about, but of course I forgot what it was.
Ah well, better go and try to catch some Z's. G'night, kittens.

EDIT: I just noticed that both of my Pirates fics in FF.net have been nominated for an award. O_O
"Most Creative" for The Seven Names of Elizabeth Swann and "Best Jack POV" for In Her Eyes of Gold. Didn't win the first one, but it's only completely natural as I was up against the likes of bravenewcentury . I don't expect to win the other one either, but it sure felt good to be even nominated considering how brilliant writers this fandom has.

I wonder why is he still making cameos in my dreams.

(No, not him, him I haven't seen in a while. Maybe because I haven't needed to, because everything is now alright with him.)

But him, I don't even know him and haven't seen him in six months or so. But it's still there, it's been there for almost two years now and I just wish I knew why.
But there are no answers, I guess. There never are.

...I wonder what would happen if we met again.
Probably nothing. But... Yeah.

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This is probably my last night in this room, by the way.
Not that I sleep here because pretty much all the furniture is already gone and the room feels very empty and has a different kind of echo. It will feel weird to not live here anymore, but it's necessary.

You also won't be seeing me around much in near future (not that you have seen me around much lately either) because I don't have an internet connection yet. Heh, maybe that means I'll actually manage to get myself a real social life.

But I'd better go to sleep now before the sun rises.
Goodnight, kittens.

So, it's 2007.
And look what a glorious New Year's gift Nightwish gave us!
If that's not going to be the greatest album they have ever made, I will eat my hat.
Or something.

All in all a pretty promising way to start a new year, don't you think?
And in addition to that one, there will also be at least a new album from Moonsorrow, entitled Viides Luku: Hävitetty (Chapter Five: Ravaged) with a somewhat thought-provoking theme according to what Ville Sorvali said in Inferno, as well as a new Finntroll album, Ur Jordens Djup, which apparently is also a theme album about the origin of trolls (and with lyrics by good ol' Katla and one song actually written by Tundra and Somnium!). Exciting, huh?

Viides Luku will already be out in two weeks if memory serves, and Ur Jordens Djup in April. Then there's February with FME and everything. Next month actually, whoa.
And come May we will be given the first taste from the new NW album, and hear what the new lass will sound like (which is undoubtedly awesome).
And on May 25th it's the international premiere of Pirates of the Caribbean: At World's End, which I hope is also the premiere date in Finland. *crosses fingers and toes*
September, then, will see the release of that aforementioned masterpiece which may or may not have somewhat *ahem* lunar theme. *grin* (And if they're going to release it on the 7th, I swear I'm going to die of laughter. Almost at least. :p)

Doesn't sound too bad, aye?
So let's hope this will be a good and important year to everyone with only minor setbacks.
May you all find your paths in this life, I hope I will too. *smiles*

Juttelin tänään taas kerran äidin kanssa tulevaisuudestani.
Se on minulle niin hämärä, näen pelkkää sumua kun yritän nähdä missä olen vuodenkin päästä.
Vaikka se ennustus pyöriikin mielessäni liikaakin. En saisi antaa sen vaikuttaa päätöksiini, tai ylipäätään ajatuksiini niin paljon.
Olen miettinyt mitä haluaisin tehdä työkseni. Folkloristiikka on unelma, mutta kovin utopistinen sellainen.
Kun sitä alkaa vakavissaan ajatella, kannattaako minun oikeasti mennä lukemattomaksi määräksi vuosia yliopistoon pänttäämään aihetta, joka on minulle rakas, mutta joka ei koskaan tule elättämään minua?

Esitin puoliksi harkitun ajatuksen jonkinlaisesta rokkitoimittajan työstä, ja äiti innostui.
Journalismi... Niin, sattuneesta syystä se on ollut minulle jonkinlainen kirosana viime aikoina.
Ja olisinko minä yhtään sen parempi? Tai pärjäisinkö minä edes sillä alalla...
Ja olisiko minusta lähtemään rokkielämään, savuisiin kapakoihin ja viinanhuuruisille backstageille? Siis sikäli kun ikinä pääsisin sinne asti... *huokaus*

Voisihan sitä kysyä vaikka Suen toimituksesta kaipaisivatko ne avustajaa sinne työharjoitteluun.
Ainakin saisin hiukan näyttöä siitä, millaista se rokkitoimittajan duuni loppujen lopuksi on ennen kuin teen päätöstä lähteä opiskelemaan alaa. Onko se sittenkin Oriveden Opisto joka minua kutsuu vai onko kohtaloni jossain muualla?
Bleh, saisi nyt tämän lukionkin pois alta.

Huomenna pitää oikeastitodella repäistä itsensä irti näistä todellisuuspakoisista maailmoista joihin olen taas ajautunut ja alkaa hoitaa asioita.

Asiasta kukkaruukkuun, suurkiitos audrah:lle Anúnan suosittelemisesta!
Aivan upeaa musiikkia. Tätä Blackthorniakin olen nyt kuunnellut repeatilla varmaan puoli tuntia.