Peas in a pod?

Almost a week since I last wrote something.
And, alas, I still can't write anything sensible as much as I'd love to.
I've had wonderful ideas, long elaborate ponderings just waiting to be written down, but... Yeah.
And now I'm sitting at computer, 7.54 AM, acknowledging the fact I'm hopelessly lost in fiction once again. Living through someone else, someone who doesn't even exist in real life.
And just how sad is that?

But at least I'm not thinking of him. Haven't thought of him much in two weeks or so.
And I think it's a good thing, definetely. Though it is a bit strange, to feel so indifferent after having him haunting the edges of my conciousness for almost two years (if not more) now, every single day.
Today (tonight?) happened something that made me thoughtful again, though.
Quite curiously I was told that watching him reminds of me and not the other way around.
It's not me resembling him, it's him resembling me. Strange.
Are we so alike then, after all? I guess I'll never know.
"Peas in a pod, darlin'." *dry chuckle*

And I must be masochistic to listen to this song.
But I guess I deserve it, all those feelings of guilt, sorrow and longing those lines evoke in me.

"En kadu ketään niistä joita syliini suljin,
Heitä sentään rakastin.
Itken kaikkia niitä joiden ohitse kuljin,
Joita väistin ja pakenin.
Sillä aina kun ihmisen lähelle päästin,
Löysin lähelle itsekin.
Mutta jos itseäni varjelin ja säästin,
Heti eksyin ja palelin."