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darnaguenHm. I guess I now officially have a flat of my own, as I received the key today and now have some of my stuff there. I'm liking the apartment very much and my landlord couple are the nicest people ever. However it looks like I can't move in just yet as I have to pay the first rent on the 4th day and it's going to take all the money I currently have and I have to borrow some from my mom as well. Stupid bureaucracy for thinking I actually have the money to pay the rent AND start a new independent life with the 270€ I got from SSO. *sigh* I just hope it will work out somehow.
I think I'm going to stress myself to death if things keep going on like this. Too much stuff going on at the moment, most of it completely new and strange to me. I already had to forget about the ACS (evening school) and that sucks because it was something I really wanted to do.
I have Fendari (a kind of practical training thing for young people in this handicrafts workshop) again in the morning, but seeing as I'm still awake and literally pulling my hair and shaking with stress... Yeah. That sick leave is starting to sound like a good idea again.
And I hate being so weak. *another sigh*
I'm also sorry I have neglected people horribly and been distant an unsocial and haven't replied to messages and comments. But it's apparently just the way I behave under stress, I cave in and hide inside myself and fictional worlds and time and space become a blur to me and I become really absent-minded. I'm a real mess. *deep sigh*
Just hope that things will get better after I finally have managed to wade through all this crap.
(And now I'm bloody crying because my Last.fm is playing me a sentimental lovesong.
Every time I look at you the world just melts away
All my troubles all my fears dissolve in your affections
You've seen me at my weakest but you take me as I am
And when I fall you offer me a softer place to land
You stay the course you hold the line you keep it all together
You're the one true thing I know I can believe in
You're all the things that I desire, you save me, you complete me
You're the one true thing I know I can believe
I get mad so easy but you give me room to breathe
No matter what I say or do 'cause you're too good to fight about it
Even when I have to push just to see how far you'll go
You won't stoop down to battle but you never turn to go
You stay the course you hold the line you keep it all together
You're the one true thing I know I can believe in
You're all the things that I desire, you save me, you complete me
You're the one true thing I know I can believe
Your love is just the antidote when nothing else will cure me
There are times I can't decide when I cant tell up from down
You make me feel less crazy when otherwise I'd drown
But you pick me up and brush me off and tell me I'm OK
Sometimes that's just what we need to get us through the day
You stay the course you hold the line you keep it all together
You're the one true thing I know I can believe in
You're all the things that I desire, you save me, you complete me
You're the one true thing I know I can believe)
I think I'm going to stress myself to death if things keep going on like this. Too much stuff going on at the moment, most of it completely new and strange to me. I already had to forget about the ACS (evening school) and that sucks because it was something I really wanted to do.
I have Fendari (a kind of practical training thing for young people in this handicrafts workshop) again in the morning, but seeing as I'm still awake and literally pulling my hair and shaking with stress... Yeah. That sick leave is starting to sound like a good idea again.
And I hate being so weak. *another sigh*
I'm also sorry I have neglected people horribly and been distant an unsocial and haven't replied to messages and comments. But it's apparently just the way I behave under stress, I cave in and hide inside myself and fictional worlds and time and space become a blur to me and I become really absent-minded. I'm a real mess. *deep sigh*
Just hope that things will get better after I finally have managed to wade through all this crap.
(And now I'm bloody crying because my Last.fm is playing me a sentimental lovesong.
Every time I look at you the world just melts away
All my troubles all my fears dissolve in your affections
You've seen me at my weakest but you take me as I am
And when I fall you offer me a softer place to land
You stay the course you hold the line you keep it all together
You're the one true thing I know I can believe in
You're all the things that I desire, you save me, you complete me
You're the one true thing I know I can believe
I get mad so easy but you give me room to breathe
No matter what I say or do 'cause you're too good to fight about it
Even when I have to push just to see how far you'll go
You won't stoop down to battle but you never turn to go
You stay the course you hold the line you keep it all together
You're the one true thing I know I can believe in
You're all the things that I desire, you save me, you complete me
You're the one true thing I know I can believe
Your love is just the antidote when nothing else will cure me
There are times I can't decide when I cant tell up from down
You make me feel less crazy when otherwise I'd drown
But you pick me up and brush me off and tell me I'm OK
Sometimes that's just what we need to get us through the day
You stay the course you hold the line you keep it all together
You're the one true thing I know I can believe in
You're all the things that I desire, you save me, you complete me
You're the one true thing I know I can believe)
