Lay down your sweet and weary head...

[darnaguen]

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Heheh...

Today I somehow managed to drive a bike straight into a lamp-post.
It was probably because the front wheel of that damn piece of junk isn't properly attached and I thus lost control of the bike.
Anyway, I now have a deep wound in my left eyebrow and a swollen upper lip.
The lip will heal quickly I think, but I'll probably have a scar in my eyebrow for the rest of my life. Ah well, maybe it'll only make me look like a bad-ass she-wolf who has fought many fights. :p And I guess I'm lucky that the peg hit me in the eyebrow instead of my eye...

I was also named "The official interpreter of Tuomas's emotional life" on the Nightwish forum and it amuses me. Though it was kinda nice and even touching to find out that I am not viewed as some obsessed fangirl by everyone but more like as someone who has deep, sisterly understanding of him. *smiles*

But I admit that I live too much for Nightwish.
Oh what the heck, Dreamfinder is right. I live too much for everything else but for myself.
I have to start doing something about MY life, not worry about others', and also cease living in dreams and escaping reality. I wonder what the hell is wrong with me nowadays. *sigh*
I feel so indifferent and world-weary. I just want to sleep and sit on computer.
And I'm on medication that is supposed to cure depression, not increase it, for goodness's sake!

Lay down
Your sweet and weary head
Night is falling
You have come to journey's end

Sleep now and dream
Of the ones who came before
They are calling
From across a distant shore

Why do you weep?
What are these tears upon your face?
Soon you will see
All of your fears will pass away

Safe in my arms
You're only sleeping

What can you see
On the horizon?
Why do the white gulls call?
Across the sea
A pale moon rises
The ships have come
To carry you home

And all will turn
To silver-glass
A light on the water
All souls pass

Hope fades
Into the world of night
Through shadows falling
Out of memory and time

Don't say
We have come now to the end
White shores are calling
You and I will meet again

And you'll be here in my arms
Just sleeping

What can you see
On the horizon?
Why do the white gulls call?
Across the sea
A pale moon rises
The ships have come
To carry you home

And all will turn
To silver-glass
A light on the water
Grey ships pass
Into the West...

Meh. I guess I'd better go to sleep...

Comments

[suomigoth.livejournal.com]

Darling, please be carefull with those medicins, cause as you already noticed they should keep you from being depressed, but many cases are known of increased depression because of the prescription of the wrong kind of anti-depressa.... If it really doesn't improve, go back to your doctor and tell it to him.

I can fully understand yout problem with that you maybe should start doing something with your life, but that you're at the moment to busy with other people. Making other people happy is something which makes you feel better too... yet it's not a happiness that lasts... Just go and look around what it is you could do with your life, you shouldn't hurry into decisions like this.

[darnaguen.livejournal.com]

Thank you too, dear. :)
And I think I will indeed stop using those meds once and for all, no matter what.
Apparently anti-depressants are not for me because this is not the first time they're not working as they should.