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darnaguenWell, I'm back.
At home, that is. Things started going headfirst to hell once again and I just couldn't stay alone there in that barren room.
No, nothing wrong with the room actually, but with the fact they're charging me some 200€ more of it that they were supposed to. And as you can probably tell, I have no such money. Even the 527€ per month would have been tough price enough to pay.
I was going to go back there with the last bus, but now I'm not that sure anymore.
After crying a bit, talking to Ella in phone (thanks love, I really needed that *hugs*) and eating something (haven't really eaten in about 12 hours), the familiar defiance is rising its head again.
I know "To hell with all!" attitude isn't the best possible attitude in a situation like this, but I guess it's some kind of psychological shielding mechanism. So I think I'll try to take it easy tonight, watch The League of Extraordinary Gentlemen (Stuart Townsend, rowr...) from TV and try redoing some Cloud Islands stuff. I can worry about school stuff tomorrow.
And hey, maybe this path wasn't meant for me after all... Or then the Fate is laughing mockingly at me once again.
At home, that is. Things started going headfirst to hell once again and I just couldn't stay alone there in that barren room.
No, nothing wrong with the room actually, but with the fact they're charging me some 200€ more of it that they were supposed to. And as you can probably tell, I have no such money. Even the 527€ per month would have been tough price enough to pay.
I was going to go back there with the last bus, but now I'm not that sure anymore.
After crying a bit, talking to Ella in phone (thanks love, I really needed that *hugs*) and eating something (haven't really eaten in about 12 hours), the familiar defiance is rising its head again.
I know "To hell with all!" attitude isn't the best possible attitude in a situation like this, but I guess it's some kind of psychological shielding mechanism. So I think I'll try to take it easy tonight, watch The League of Extraordinary Gentlemen (Stuart Townsend, rowr...) from TV and try redoing some Cloud Islands stuff. I can worry about school stuff tomorrow.
And hey, maybe this path wasn't meant for me after all... Or then the Fate is laughing mockingly at me once again.
