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darnaguenFucking fuckety fuck.
If I was anxious and desperate the last time days before the Cloud Islands, this time I just seriously want to give up and only want it to be over already. I know I said it the last time as well, but really, if this succeeds, I'll call it a divine miracle. This whole thing is a big fucking mess.
I still think we should have postponed it, or cancelled it altogether. Because this shit? Is a haphazard work in progress at best.
I'm really sorry that it always seems to be you who suffers of the Cloud Islands curse of lousy luck,![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
grindwyn. *sigh* I really really wanted especially that dynamic to work out, but what the hell can you do when first there's no one to play Birchleaf and then goddamn Santeri has to cancel too so Blackthorn lacks a player as well. Perkele.
It's perhaps not the most exemplary GM behaviour to run off to your boyfriend in Tampere when the stress level becomes too much to handle and I've probably been driving poor Tommi up the wall, but I'm pretty sure that had I gone back to Turku instead on Monday night, I'd be a wreck by now.
But we'll see what tomorrow brings, when I'm back in Turku. *sigh*
If I was anxious and desperate the last time days before the Cloud Islands, this time I just seriously want to give up and only want it to be over already. I know I said it the last time as well, but really, if this succeeds, I'll call it a divine miracle. This whole thing is a big fucking mess.
I still think we should have postponed it, or cancelled it altogether. Because this shit? Is a haphazard work in progress at best.
I'm really sorry that it always seems to be you who suffers of the Cloud Islands curse of lousy luck,
grindwyn. *sigh* I really really wanted especially that dynamic to work out, but what the hell can you do when first there's no one to play Birchleaf and then goddamn Santeri has to cancel too so Blackthorn lacks a player as well. Perkele.It's perhaps not the most exemplary GM behaviour to run off to your boyfriend in Tampere when the stress level becomes too much to handle and I've probably been driving poor Tommi up the wall, but I'm pretty sure that had I gone back to Turku instead on Monday night, I'd be a wreck by now.
But we'll see what tomorrow brings, when I'm back in Turku. *sigh*
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Date: 19 Mar 2009 14:36 (UTC)Samaa mieltä ylläolevien kanssa - olosuhteet muuttuvat, eikä niille aina voi yksi tai muutamakaan ihminen mitään. Tilanne on mikä on, ja peli voi mennä vain niin hyvin kuin se menee. Kieltämättä ison projektin vetäjänä iskee helposti kiusaus syyttää itseään aivan kaikesta ja käpertyä pieneksi palloksi huonouteensa, kun asiat rupeavat kusemaan. Mutta niin kauan kuin ei heitä rukkasia naulaan, on asioilla vielä kaikki potentiaali kääntyä hyviksi.
Kieltämättä aika hurja viimehetken yllätys jäädä ilman poikia, mutta noh. On niin typertynyt olo, ettei osaa olla edes harmistunut. :P
Tsemppiä kaikille, minulla ainakin pelaajana on kova usko siihen, että jollain pyhällä hengellä tämä saadaan kyllä toimimaan. :)
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Date: 19 Mar 2009 16:30 (UTC)Pojat sinulle sentään löytyi. Tilanne on edelleen kaikkea muuta kuin ideaali hätävärväykseen kun piti turvautua, mutta mistä sitä ei kunnon briiffaamisella ja positiivisella asenteella selviäisi. *yrittää olla vaipumatta apatiaan*