"Are you dead yet?"
7 March 2007 20:34![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
darnaguenHi, I'm alive.
And yayz, things are starting to look better again.
I have money, I could quit Fendari, I was just shopping for some stuff for my new flat today with my parents and the bureaucratical bullshit is almost over now.
And the spring is definetely coming, even though right now the weather is horrible: slush, ice, water, mud and gravel everywhere. And annoying wet fog. Hrr.
I also decided to drop by at Thalia (one of the only coffee shops in town that allows smoking indoors and thus the favourite hangout of many young people) for a change on Monday. It was like I'd never left in the first place: same faces, same topics and same thick veil of cigarette smoke. Ella and Laura and Janina enthused about the newest Pimeyden Maailma/Hauraita Unelmia/whatever saga and Tommi and Venla were being cute.
I felt a bit like an outsider, though, but I guess it's only normal. I haven't really been around much lately. Funny how some things stay the same nevertheless, though. Like the way Tommi greeted me by smiling and scratching me behind my ear, just like he could have done three years ago. (Though you can never really be sure what kind of reaction to expect from that guy, it can be anything from an warm hug to acting like you don't even exist). And I noticed I still love him as dearly as I did three years ago, despite everything that has happened since then.
(Also, I think some tiny little part of me will always be just a little bit in love with him on some level. But well, he's Tommi. Everyone is.)
On slightly more negative topic, it somehow never ceases to amaze me how many bloody damn idiots there are on this planet. I know it's not my place to feel any kind of righteous fury about that, but apparenly my "defend the pack" instincts kicked in (which is pretty interesting actually). She really doesn't deserve that crap and some people should really get a soddin' life.
Okay, rant over. *chuckle*
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routaneito .
And yayz, things are starting to look better again.
I have money, I could quit Fendari, I was just shopping for some stuff for my new flat today with my parents and the bureaucratical bullshit is almost over now.
And the spring is definetely coming, even though right now the weather is horrible: slush, ice, water, mud and gravel everywhere. And annoying wet fog. Hrr.
I also decided to drop by at Thalia (one of the only coffee shops in town that allows smoking indoors and thus the favourite hangout of many young people) for a change on Monday. It was like I'd never left in the first place: same faces, same topics and same thick veil of cigarette smoke. Ella and Laura and Janina enthused about the newest Pimeyden Maailma/Hauraita Unelmia/whatever saga and Tommi and Venla were being cute.
I felt a bit like an outsider, though, but I guess it's only normal. I haven't really been around much lately. Funny how some things stay the same nevertheless, though. Like the way Tommi greeted me by smiling and scratching me behind my ear, just like he could have done three years ago. (Though you can never really be sure what kind of reaction to expect from that guy, it can be anything from an warm hug to acting like you don't even exist). And I noticed I still love him as dearly as I did three years ago, despite everything that has happened since then.
(Also, I think some tiny little part of me will always be just a little bit in love with him on some level. But well, he's Tommi. Everyone is.)
On slightly more negative topic, it somehow never ceases to amaze me how many bloody damn idiots there are on this planet. I know it's not my place to feel any kind of righteous fury about that, but apparenly my "defend the pack" instincts kicked in (which is pretty interesting actually). She really doesn't deserve that crap and some people should really get a soddin' life.
Okay, rant over. *chuckle*
EDIT: Oh, forgot to add this thingy, got it from
routaneito .
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Date: 8 Mar 2007 12:15 (UTC)I think it's only natural to defend someone out of your "pack", so it's not that surprising I think ;). Except maybe if you didn't know before that this person was actually part of the "pack" in the first place and just realized it through your feelings. That would be interesting indeed though I guess it happens very rarely.
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Date: 15 Mar 2007 23:39 (UTC)