Pride & Prejudice

[darnaguen]

So... If I have learned something important or met someone important in each year's September ever since 2003, I guess this year's lesson is: "Your actions have consequences."
I've also come to realize, although more recently than in September, what an arrogant, presumptuous fool I have occasionally been (and what consequences it has had).

It's oddly fitting that I learned this now, because during the past two weeks I've been having a some kind of Jane Austen phase (I've watched the new Pride & Prejudice movie at least thrice and listened to the soundtrack on repeat). So if I've identified with Lizzy before, I understand her dismay after realizing how wrong she had been even better now. And Darcy's too, especially after reading Maya Slater's Mr. Darcy's Diary, fanfiction in form of literature as it may be.

I'm pretty ashamed of myself, especially for the trouble and chagrin I have unintentionally caused to others, but I guess there's no use dwelling on it. Past is past. *sigh*

Ahh, anyways... I suppose something good came out of that little misadventure in Helsinki a couple of weeks ago as well, because it now looks like me and Ella are going to Dublin in April. For real. I've now decided to go there in the spring even if we don't get tickets to that NW gig. It would be cool, of course, as they're still my favourite band and all, but... yeah.
So, in conclusion: Whoo yeah, I'm going home(?)! *big wide grin*

Comments

[lumenlaulu.livejournal.com]

You're going to Dublin? That is so great! I've never been there, but I bet is one heck of a place. Let's see if you ever wan't to return, because I could've stayed in Scotland and go live somewhere in the Highlands. ;) Still pondering that Tavastia -night?

[darnaguen.livejournal.com]

Yeah, I actually just told Ella that it could be that she has to drag me by force to the plane back to Finland. :D
And yeah, that night still kinda bothers me, as well as something else I've been told. But as I said, it was an important lesson I guess.

[lumenlaulu.livejournal.com]

That is quite probable. I know exactly what you mean. :D I'm kinda thrilled on your behalf, you must write a long, long travel journal about that trip. But didn't everything concerning that Tavastia - night turn up in the end fine? You're not in some black book after all and no one has turned their back on you?

[darnaguen.livejournal.com]

Sure I will keep a journal, I'll even try to write some live updates from the hostel computers. :)
Yeah, no one has turned their back on me (well, no one I would care if the did anyway), but it's just I feel kinda stupid for knowing that things I've said and done have had an effect on certain people's lives, sometimes negative one. Oh well. *shrug*

[lumenlaulu.livejournal.com]

That indeed is uncomfortable AND disturbing to know. I guess the guilt will never truly fade, but I believe that in the end most of our actions do have some larger meaning we just can't see. Kind of karma -thing. (I've been reading tonight a bit about soul mates and twin flames. Interesting ideas that some have.)

[darnaguen.livejournal.com]

I know... Everything happens for a reason and all that jazz.
I would still like to know the reason, though. But I suppose I never will. *dry chuckle*
As for those soul mate and twin flame things, I really don't know what to think anymore because I feel like the "connection" has in a way switched from one person to another. Very confusing, to say the least.

[lumenlaulu.livejournal.com]

Sounds like your life is none the less complicated than mine at the moment, though I really don't know your story. Are you saying that you have totally lost the connection or it has somehow been averted or taken a new direction?