The Howling

I feel like there's so much less in my life nowadays. It's mostly my own fault, I suppose, I've given a lot up. But I miss those things.

I miss playing Werewolf: The Apocalypse. I was really fond of Maarit and the Windwalkers pack. I'm really sorry I let Aarne & co. down. I never wanted to become that kind of girlfriend (even though that's not really the whole explanation).
I miss Qigong. I really enjoyed it, and should at least practice it on my own.
I kind of miss my Nightwish fandom, even though it hasn't really been my scene in a year or so anymore. But I miss the people. I just can't handle the drama and responsibility on the forum any longer, and... I'm just not really a fan anymore.

I miss Call of Cthulhu. I miss those long walks and debates with Samuel (where are you, man?). I miss watching movies at Mervi's place and her cats (she lives in Romania now, life's funny sometimes). I miss Whisky Bar and its awesome jukebox. I miss babysitting Tommi and Knaapi when they're being drunken idiots. I miss larping the way it still was four or five years ago.

Hell, I miss having a social life of my own. This place is constantly full of people, but it just makes me feel more lonely because mostly I just feel like I'm in the way. "Oh sorry, don't mind me, I just live here.". One of the main reasons why I spend so much time at Tampere nowadays is because I barely feel like this is my home at all anymore.
And yeah, I have a boyfriend now, but I don't want him to be my entire social life. I really DON'T want to be that kind of girlfriend. *faint panicked look of a cornered animal*

Call me, poke me on Facebook, send me a message in a bottle. Ask me out for a drink, to movies, to the park or riverside to eat ice cream. I can't promise 100% to be in Turku, but if I am I promise I'll come.
I'm already looking forward to Teinigoottipiknik, thank you Venla. <3

(Oh dear God this track gives me chills. ;__; <3)

*lets out a deep breath*

Anyways, it was so good to see people again.
Tommi invited me to join their Cthulhu campaign, which is nice because it gives me a chance to see pretty much everyone at least once a week, especially now that Kahi's Forgotten Realms campaign seems to be dead (which is a great pity in a way because the Realms are like my imaginary homeworld and I'm really fond of my Calimshite wind sorceress Ishra. Ah well, at least I can make her & co. kick ass in Icewind Dale II.)
We also made some plans about my character and she turned out to be pretty cool, I think.
She's a young Anglo-French heiress named Elizabeth de Somethingepicinfrench. But you can call her Bess, she's cool like that. She's also a bit revolutionary for a young aristocratic lady in the '20s, sporting short curls and wearing trousers and waistcoats and stuff like that. But I guess no one is very surprised as she's my character after all. *chuckle*
Also, Tommi and Venla are just too cute. It was really heartwarming to watch those two, they're so good together. :)

Meh. Better go and try to get some sleep now.